A lot of people have reminded me today of my good fortune for having spent time with Louie. You know when all that's going on, you don't think so much about it. You just assume everything will always be the same and that you will have access to a person into eternity. Today, all those times are burning into my head, and it's a wierd feeling.
I especially feel that way about our last meeting. It was at the 1st year revival of the Louie Bellson National Drum Competition. It took place in his home town of Rock Falls, Illinois. It will be 4 years ago in June, and I was in the 9th grade.
I was the youngest finalist they ever had at the thing, and it really got me thinking about the bigger picture. The whole audition proccess was a submit CD deal. I remember it was pretty detailed. You had to demonstrate a bunch of styles, play along to a music minus one Duke Ellington track, then play a 3 minute solo. The comp itself followed the same format. Before I auditioned, the main concern was my family's prior relationship with Louie, conflict of interest stuff etc... But according to the competition committee, he would have nothing to do with the judging, and it turned out that he didn't. So I was cool.
Besides, as my folks told me: He's not going to remember you anyway.
See, Louie had some health struggles in the last years, and without getting too into it, let's just say they were things that seriously affected his legendary sharpness. Along with the medical condition, he had been hit by a car a few years before, trying to cross the street in LA. His last 10 years were something else. I had seen him at the Long Beach IAJE earlier that year, and he didn't even seem to remember Mom and Dad, much less me.
Mom drove me the 8 hours from Flint Michigan to Rock Falls. Dad was still in Romania with his jazz camp. Besides he didn't want to risk somebody remembering him. Like I've already said, we knew everything was on the up and up, but you had to assume that another competitor would cry foul if they lost, and I wouldn't blame them for at least wondering.
When we got to the venue, Louie came up and shook hands with the 4 finalists. They ranged from the oldest guy, who was 20, to me. The age limit for the comp was 21. The Bellson National had supposedly always been a kid's contest, even back in the 60s and 70s, when thousands tried to get in. And as predicted, Louie didn't remember me from Adam. But just to be on the safe side, Mom never got in direct sight with him. But he just seemed like he was off in space.
The competition itself was the most professional drum comp I had ever seen. I especially liked how they placed all of us in a soundproof room when it wasn't our turn. This kept people from having their ideas stolen. That was a very strange thing, because you were left to stare uncomfortably at the other 3 guys. One of them started to laugh and talk foolishness, but the others/including me/ knew he was the one who was going to lose. The rest of us just sat there stone faced.
Mom said it was a very intense comp, and that everyone was deserving. But it eventually came down to 2 guys/ the 20 year old and me. The contest had been declared a tie by the judges and we were both required to perform an extra solo. With the tie breaker being a surprise, no one was there to guard the soundproof door. So after my solo I was able to crack the door slightly to hear my competition. The other guy was really, really strong, but I thought I had taken him, and was feeling pretty good about myself. Then there was this big sound in the audience when the special tie breaker judge was announced. Well sure enough, from the back of the room here comes Louie.
Now I'm experiencing all kinds of mixed emotions. I still don't think he's recognized me, but now what happens when I win this thing and somebody discovers the history and complains? That was what was going through my mind when Louie announced that the winner of the 2005 Louie Bellson National Drumset Competition was:
The other guy.
I couldn't believe it. How could Louie not have gotten it right? I thought. Of course I really knew better. The other guy was super excellent, and all that was confirmed when I saw the videos later. I was just a little irked that a possibly better guy had gotten me. In fact, there's this really funny picture of Louie shaking my hand after the comp. The look on my face speaks volumes.
Then there was this uncomfortable several hours where we all attended a banquet, then heard Louie play guest star in a local big band. The guest of honor stuff was really supposed to go to the winner of the comp. But Louie insisted we both receive equal public recognition. At the concert, we were introduced together as kind of co winners. I had never seen something like that before. Still, the other guy received many cool prizes, while I got a crash cymbal. So it really wasn't the same lol.
What amazed me about the concert was how for just a brief time, Louie had recovered much of his legendary skill. I had really worried about this beforehand, because you never want to see an icon embarrassed. But he played really great-not the godlike level of before, but still great. In fact, you wondered how he overcame everything to sound so good.
It was a miracle really. Then you'd look in his eyes, and it just seemed like the playing woke him up. He was totally different with those sticks in his hand, physical problems aside.
When the concert was over, I got up to leave when Louie yells from across the stage Hey Matt, tell your dad I said hello. I was shocked. For at least that brief moment, he remembered. Then I started to wonder if he had known all along. I don't think so, Mom said. I think the memory was temporary. Then sure enough, Mom walks right by him and looks him square in the eye, and Louie doesn't show any kind of recognition.
The next year, I had planned to go back. But they changed the date or something, and by that time I had already purchased my plane ticket for the WFD World Championship that I later won. I was very disappointed when I later learned that the quality of competitors had really dipped, and that the comp had been won by someone I didn't feel was in the same league as the finalists the year before. Then the following year, they didn't even have the comp, which got everyone out of the habit. By the time it rolled around this year, it just wasn't the same, and I had no interest in going.
Yeah, it's funny the stuff you remember on a day like this.