Thanks guys
Yes, I am harsh on myself, & no, I don't do it to attract ego stroking praise. You see, I spend most of my
professional drumming life around players who really can play, & I mean play with a breadth of repertoire that places my meagre offerings into stark context. If I'm truthful, I'm pretty good at what I do, actually, better than many at what I do, but what I do is hugely limited. Lucky for me, what I do is 80% of what's required on most playing situations I encounter. My lack of overall ability, my woeful attention to practice/advancement of any kind, is why I've taken on my latest gig. It pushes me, it's outside of my sphere of operation, I don't even like most of the material. That's good for me, I think.
You may laugh at this, but my
technical highlight of the year was pulling out a couple of fills that David Floegel can't do. They're me all over, & hark back to the day when I actually had something to offer to the scene. I'm an inherently lazy bastard when it comes to practice. One of these days I'll actually find the time & inclination to woodshed. Until then, I grow organically through live playing experience. Maybe someday, I'll become the player I was 30 years ago. From that foundation, I could really spring forward.
Then there's the (welcome) reality check. LDS jam night last weekend. I'm so outclassed it's untrue. Kinda happy about that because it's a pressure off situation, but it keeps me grounded, as if I ever needed that.
Sorry for the half book, I've had wine